Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts
Showing posts with label fear. Show all posts

Thursday, July 25, 2019

Jump into the Unknown

For the past 10 or more years, I have been a slave to the corporate world - if you call BPOs as a corporate world.  Most people do not really treat the BPO industry as 'corporate' - I don't know for what reason - but let's just keep it as it is.
My point is, I go to work, I go to an office to earn a living.
I have officemates, co-workers, colleagues - whatever you want to call them.  I have a boss, a super boss, my boss's boss and all other ranks higher than my position in the office.
I belong to the "hemline" in the corporate world - a mere rank and file who "faces" customers.
Life is routinary.  I work, I go home, I sleep - and the same cycle again the following day.  On weekdays, I look forward to weekends, and on Sundays, I dread when the clock strikes 12 midnight because it is Monday again.
I'm sure a lot of people can relate to that situation.
About 3 or 4 months ago, I decided to make use of my free time after office hours to be productive and become time spent to earn instead of watching Korean dramas and series.  I bumped into the freelancing world where my office colleagues shared success stories from different people who are into freelancing.
Jump.
I jumped into the bandwagon - if this is called a bandwagon.
I started to join free online seminars and joined Facebook groups dedicated to freelancers, and I became a silent lurker - reading posts and envying on those success stories of people who were into it ahead of me.
I created an Upwork profile - and was rejected - and found ways to be approved and finally got in.
I applied for different job posts and got no replies.
I tried.
2 months.
Out of boredom and a little desperation, I applied into a Virtual Assistant job - well - in lay man's term - an online secretary.  You all know what a secretary does.
I took advantage of the skill I learned from my BPO experience and created a simple, out-of boredom application letter (or in freelancing, we call it "proposal").
I got a spot for an interview.  I got the job. 
The day after my interview - I started my first freelance job as an Assistant.
A few months on - I am still working for the same client.  Same job. 
I am still employed at the moment.  Oh yes, double job.
Worth it?
Yes. And no.
Yes - I needed to choose one.
I let go of the corporate world.
I choose you - online job.
This world is literally unknown to me. I do not know what to expect after 6 months, 10 months, in December, next year - everything is a blur.
I keep thoughts of those success stories I read on those Facebook pages I joined related to this field. I am hoping that their success story will also become my success story.
This is my unknown at the moment.
But I choose to jump into the unknown.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I am doing something that I do know about - and all I have are hopes and aspirations of becoming successful.
I know I will, I know I can - and I claim it.
On August 14, I will walk the halls of my office for the last time.  My next office is my humble abode.
My freelancing journey will officially begin.